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Breathing you in. When you say I make you crazy. How you keep nut bars everywhere. The way your arms feel around me. The way your hands feel on me. Your resting smile. When you talk about Jesus. When you talk about your dad. The texture in your voice. When you sing. That you’re the kinda guy who spends half a day in hospital with his aunt. That you decided to only work four days a week. That you love Jesus. Your sleepy voice. The way you laugh when I tickle you. Running my fingers through your hair. How you help me with my indecision. The way you look at me. Afternoon naps with you. How unpretentious you are. Talking about life and the universe with you. Singing with you. That we did karaoke on our third date. That you read. How articulate you are. How you make the effort to understand me. How you affirm me. The way you love your family. The way you love your friends. That you hold money lightly but use it wisely. That you’re open to trying new things. That you came to Texas with me. Playing Age of Empires with you. That you have great spelling. How you inhabit your own skin. Your biceps. Your positivity. Making dinner with you. Holding your hand. That you are kind. That you are considerate. When you squeeze me and I squeeze you back. How handsome you look in a collared shirt. Your maturity. Your honesty. That you’re affectionate. That you’re thoughtful. How my parents are with you. That you like the real football. That you’re learning guitar. That you play for your family. Spending time with you – the longer the better. How I ache for you. Feeling safe with you. That you are everything I ever wanted in a man. That you are everything I didn’t even know I wanted in a man. How you delight me. That I delight you. How perceptive you are. Seeing you come up the stairs to my apartment. How we both take a drink bottle everywhere we go. Discovering more about you. When you plan a date and I get to just enjoy the ride. When we don’t plan a date and still find something fun to do. That everything is fun with you. Your excitement about random God things. Your excitement about random other things. That scent you have. That you are all about good communication. That you are unafraid of feelings. How clean you are. That you are a praying person. When I get to stay the night. When you stay the night. When you stay two nights. All the things I have been feeling for the first time with you.

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Happy birthday.

xoxo